What do you really want?

You have to be truly honest with yourself and ask yourself, “What is it I am looking for? What do I really want”. If the answer is “The truth of my own self”, then you have arrived. This is the only requirement. Do you long to return home with a burning desire? This desire will burn up all the other desires that have been causing endless suffering in your life. Eons of suffering all because of the desire for wealth, fame, societal success, material happiness, sensual pleasures. But when there is one burning desire to know the Truth then all the other desires are burned up and they no longer take you away from your wish. Then the path is cleared for you and you will proceed quickly to your goal. You have to know what it is that you want in this life. The quest begins here. If you say you want the truth but all day long you are throwing your life energy away by following the impulses of your ego desires then you are not being truthful with yourself. First you have to come to one-pointedness. With single pointed concentration ask this one question, “Who am I?”, or “How do I merge with my Beloved?”. Both are asking the same thing, “How can I be free?”. Then you can begin the quest.

Beginning the Quest

It only takes a moment. Turn the gaze of your awareness upon yourself. Who wants to know the truth? Who is the looker looking for any semblance of peace? Who has grown tired of the endless suffering, pain, nausea of this world? You have to look. You need only a moment to look and see who is there, who is claiming to have a story, identity, narrative, persona? Now look and see. Where is this persona you have been lugging around from birth to birth? When you look it all vanishes. Nothing there. Keep looking. Don’t allow the mind any foothold. You are suspended in space with no ground beneath you and no sky above. There is nothing to hold on to here. For this moment let all the grasping tendencies of the mind be seen through. Nothing to grab hold of. No identity and no imagination weaving a story. Nothing. Utterly alone and suspended with nothing for the mind to orient itself to. Now what reveals Itself in that moment of Aloneness will carry you beyond definition, form, and formlessness.

Aloneness is All-One-ness

This Aloneness is nothing like loneliness. It is the most beautiful Silence. You will find that you have always been alone, that there was never a time when you were not alone, and that you are alone now. Even in a crowded room there is not a single thing there and you are utterly alone. This feeling will be accompanied by peace, even bliss. This is the Peace of your own self. The Peace that is beyond understanding. All is One and this Oneness has absorbed your mind and revealed the illusion of separateness.

Now you are free to laugh. The story you believed in, of who and what you thought yourself to be in this world was all a big joke! Up until now the joke has been on you but now you can laugh along with the joke. What once was a fragile ego, easily wounded and hurtable, has dropped away and revealed the fearlessness of a lion. From here, Maya, the world of suffering and illusion, becomes a lucid dream. You don’t have to take the story of your life so seriously anymore. You don’t have to be afraid of the dream anymore. Now you are an actor and you can continue to fulfill your role in this dream world, continue your role as householder, mother, father, employee. You are free to fulfill whatever engagements you have to this world, and you may find that from this new perspective everything is accomplished much more easily.

Nothing owns you anymore. You cannot be owned or possessed by anything. Neither can you own or possess anything. You are utterly free. This is Freedom. Complete detachment, suspended in Truth. Your identification is no longer with the limited, the false, the imaginary. Now your identification is with the Whole, the One, Beingness-Consciousness-Bliss. There is no more separateness. There is nothing to fight against and nothing that can fight you. There is nothing to run from and nothing that can run from you.

The mind cannot cause you suffering anymore. You have seen through it. The tricks only work when you believe in the illusion. But when there is nothing to put forth belief in, the dream breaks and Truth announces Itself to you. Suspended in Nothingness is abiding in Truth. Abiding in Truth is the natural state. The natural state is simple, spacious, free, with no contrivance.

There is no arriving and no departing. Now there is only abiding in the Truth of your own Self. Be as you Are.